What fills your tank?

Do you ever think to give up your hobby because you have too much to do? Oh I did. I love to write stories and share it on my blog. I love to design wallpapers or quotes or so, even if I can‘t draw and I‘m the only person who can read my handwriting. I love to sing and play instruments, even if I‘m not a pro. I just love to express myself in some creative ways — something that I can‘t really do in my study. Oh, I also really like to learn languages and trying some new recipes!

But do you know what? I can‘t even count how many times I do those things in this semester. I still took a break every week, but then I was often just being lazy, which is also okay and good for me. I also still sing and play instruments, and sometimes read books or do things that makes me happy too. But seriously, I haven't even posted anything on my blog since the beginning of my study! Blogging was one thing that always successfully makes my heart blooms and I just gave it up for the sake of studying or whatever.

A few hours ago, someone asked me to write something for an organisation that I was a part of. The first reaction in my mind was actually NO. I wasn‘t sure that I had time for it. I wasn‘t sure that I actually still could do it well anyway. Stupid thoughts! I didn‘t directly accept it, but a few moments later I was already in the middle of writing with my heart full of joy. Then I realized how I missed it. So much. Yeah, that’s why I’m here again.

Do you know that feeling when you have a really good friend, but you two don‘t call or meet each other because of distance and time, and then you meet and it just feels sooooo good? It felt like that. Crazy. I didn‘t realize it until I did it again. After all I remember, it’s not about how amazing I write or how inspiring it is, but it’s about what I love. I love it so I do it. I‘m not a journalist, who is doing this for a living. Yet indeed I do it for life, because my life needs sunshine and wind breeze in the middle of thousands of pages that I have to learn.

What I want to say is actually: Don‘t cut things that fill your tank for more time for things that drain it. It‘s not a good idea. Not even close. You need a breath out to breath in. Your heart needs to be filled up to pump the blood out. Your muscles need to relax to contract again. Even your eyes need to be closed to be opened again. As it‘s written “He rested from all the work of creating that he had done,“ life is not designed for 24/7 working and doing, but also breathing and enjoying your life. So, what fills your tank, that you don‘t do anymore?