My plan was like this: I do the Feststellungsprüfung (final exam of Studienkolleg) and then study Medical at the University right after that. But no, it didn't go that way.
My exam is finished with a miracle, what makes me think, "o yeah it's a great beginning. After this, the next door will be opened.", but no. It didn't go that way.
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts."
-- Isaiah 55:8-9
Yeah, my plan didn't work, but God's did. After I did an internship for 1 month in a hospital, I got a job in a clinic. A few days after that, I got a call from the hospital, where I did my internship like a year before, and they asked me if I want to work there. Wow.
God opens just the right doors, closes the wrong one and keeps the right one closed in the wrong time.
I had a great time at my job. I had contact with the patients almost every day and I remembered why I want to do what I want to do. It burned my heart again with passion. I was also in Indonesia for the first time since I live here and it was so refreshing. I could rest and rest and rest.
I applied again in the new semester to 24 universities and all of them, literally all of them, rejected me. Great. My plan didn't work again, I thought. And one day, a university, that has already rejected me, sent me a confirmation of admission. A university that I've never think about, that I didn't even pray for, but the best that I could have.
Some technical things, that I'm thankful for: in my university, we have more chances to take our exam than in other universities. I don't wish to need those chances, but it's nice to know that. Foreign students also have extra tutoring, that is so helpful. But moreover, I'm so thankful because I know that it is just right that I'm here. I love the city, the people, the small number of students and the personal contact to the lecturer, I love my room and the view I have from my balcony, and I love my church. It's my 2nd semester now, and I'm still so thankful for every single thing. I'm also thankful even it's still 13°C here and it's already 22°C in other parts of Germany.
Afterwards I know, I needed that period of waiting. I need that fire in my heart that burns from remembering every single moment the patients said, "You will be able to do it. You will be a good doctor. I wish all the best for you." I needed that resting-time when I didn't have to study because now I don't have so much time like that. And the most important, I needed to see that God provides and prepares, that He is good and faithful and caring and present. I saw that and see it again, again and again.
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